Badger Changing Table

I lived w / my bf of 12 years, I moved 2 years ago due to his son, GF's son and himself. My BF is an alcoholic, we have broken and gotten back together on and off for several years over the last two. I am tired and sick of being called names when he's drunk, you can not even talk to him, British Columbia, no matter what you say, he finds himself in an argument, everyone must walk on eggshells around him. At night he almost hit me with his elbow, 2yrs.ago drunk like a skunk, all I wanted to do was feed him and put him to bed before he went on the rest family, which he did. If I'm not the target, someone else. I told him 2 weeks ago, .. moreover, it was over. I accepted a date for this weekend. My ex worked on my car for 3-4 months, barely. It should not have taken so long, I paid, and it is ready today or tomorrow. We talked today and I told him I could lend him the money he asked me, but I told him I needed it by Friday, he asked why. I said I had plans, which could have served some purpose. He said that I had last time we all break, just after the break. I am always looking for someone to replace him. I just want love and happiness with someone, a kind of "normal life" with someone. I am 45 years old and not getting any younger, why does he always make me feel it's my fault. I waited 14 years for him to stop drinking and verbally abusing the whole family. I kept going back because I love her like no other before him. Hoping things would change more than just 1-2 weeks. at a time, and then agonizing months of harassment, verbal abuse .... How long am I suppose to wait ... until my death ... until misery is not how I want to spend my twilight years. It's so frustrating. All I wanted was for him always being a good and decent. I know it's there when he is sober, he's just not sober very often. Now, keep in mind is like a rollercoaster, up and down, up and down, for 14 years. it makes me sick and I want off! I do not hate him, hell, I still love him. I'm tired of how he got hurt, I just want it to stop! This seems to be the only way. I'm moving forward, as I still love him, I can not live his way. But yet he still runs the table for a person to believe that it is their fault. Everyone handles things differently. Why am I wrong to him? I gave everything that was in me.

I could tell you what I know to be true about you and your situation. Millions of people in the world knows what is going on with yourself. But even if we all screamed at your face right now you'll never agree with your reason for the situation where you are I will say this. Your addicted to soap opera you love to complain to all your friends to your man and situations related to him.

45 is rather old. (Im not reading this ****)

physical abuse, and it is better to be more verbal violence need counseling or communication, or it's over, you have to decide for yourself, not for him to decide for you, ask advice of parents or other best friends is a very large planet, and many other things to do than wait, I guess everyone could take a break in this sense,
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